I scribbled this on a piece of paper some weeks ago after gathering up an overview of lessons and internal considerations ~ arriving in this place where some sincere work has been digested. This is with the acknowledgement that this work continues ~
and these were my declarations in the clarity of change and direction and expansions that are nearest to my heart and intentions. What is grown in the fruition of healing and not just an appreciation, but an acceptance, of the process to get here.

Motions forward to a sense of spiraling return, and a strength to shine, to keep going.

no judgement no shame
no punishment no game
no judgement no shame
no punishment no game

i know
where to say no
how to say no
when to say no

what blooms
where blooms
when blooms
with Y E S

What is born now, without unexpressed expectations?
Instead ~ conscious commitments?
What speaks now through actions, through hands on place?
Intention ~
I’ll not assume without asking, and I’ll be brave with you ~
I’ll not assume without telling, and I’ll be receptive of you ~
I’ll normalize joy with you ~ I’ll surrender to  pleasure with you ~
I’ll evolve with you ~ I’ll move with you ~
I’ll nurture in desire with you ~
I’ll touch the earth with you ~
by howling for our nature ~
I’ll be within truth because I know how it feels
how-all of it feels

I have come to deeply appreciate the level of openness in conversations of healing and sensitivity in this generation. Long has there existed a turmoil of overwhelming emotion and confusion ~ a pressure to ‘not talk about these things’ ~ and all those generations of stuffed down and repressed truths and feelings, manifesting down the gene-rations in our organs and our hips and our bodies and we pause to listen and hear and understand and look and express and what is spun out in the centrifuge ~

“I have been and still am a seeker, but I have ceased to question stars and books; I have begun to listen to the teachings my blood whispers to me. My story is not a pleasant one; it is neither sweet nor harmonious, as invented stories are; it has the taste of nonsense and chaos, of madness and dreams – like the lives of all men who stop deceiving themselves.” (Herman Hesse; from Demian)

“Refusal to stand up for what you believe in weakens individual morality and ethics as well as those of the culture. No wonder then that we are a nation of people, the majority of whom, across race, class, and gender, claim to be religious, claim to believe in the divine power of love, and yet collectively remain unable to embrace a love ethic and allow it to guide behavior, especially if doing so would mean supporting radical change. Fear of radical changes leads many citizens of our nation to betray their minds and hearts.” (Bell Hooks; Teaching to Transgress)

“I don’t want to betray my mind or heart. I want to live by a love ethic. We need more love between us, but also among us. Not rainbow and unicorn love, or commercialized love. We need more real love. Gritty, dangerous, wild-eyed, justice-seeking love.” (Berne Brown; Atlas of the Heart)

Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for learning.

Thank you for being honest.

Thank you for telling your story.

Thank you for being seen.

Thank you for blooming.

Thank you for being wilder.

Thank you for being.