I sat with the impulse to remove all of the content that I have curated for beWilder so far ~ a habit of cleansing, setting fire to the work, a nod to impermanence
(an illusion of crafting perfectionism, falsely)
(a form of protection, too, as vulnerability is so tender a space to touch)
and certainly with the artistic license spark of constant reinvention ~
change, change the only constant is change
and I know this well, feel that evolving is a recycling
but what a disservice that would be, what a backwards momentum, dwelling only in the judgements of a past tense
What a further disservice it would be from acknowledging the grit of growth ~

That the process is not always clean, tidy
that I am a reflector of the times
catch and release
and all of the content loops in on itself, expands outward when it revisits itself, becomes dimensional in the tributary capillaries of this navigation:
and that is what became of my decision to leave it be as it is, and witness the scattering as honest to the multitudes of passages inherent to movement out of stagnancy. 

I see where I am, because I witness where I we have been.
Gathering it all (all of us collectively pulling this along)
now,
I shape where I am going ~
what I am doing, intentionally, along the way of expressing what is at the marrow of this work:
The journey from the internal to the external place of standing
within the altar of this body, on the kingdom of this earth, at the temple of being alive a living being
(untangling the knot work of dissociative behavior re-enactments)
witnessing, fully experiencing, boldly immersing
and that it is a practice outside of the content that is translated to share.

as waxing and waning as a moon
but as constant as the orbit, the consistent trajectory
my stewardship of heart and words are changing and ensuring the delivery at the place where I am rooting, in balancing

and is worth every passing of a phase, every re-turn of a season
this right here is at the cusp of purpose and reason

choice

choice
in self-nurturing, to give back, come back

choice
in open reception of our surroundings,
all things push and pull and influence

choice choosing
in all things give and take
reflect, participate

choice
to move with us
environmental harmonium